I have spent the last 2 or so hours thinking more about moving and apartment finding and money and rent and all sorts of things. I finally decided to write out my budget now, and for the future with different rent situations and different situations with work and school and loans and savings. What did I find....well I can afford the apartment that I want that is in my favorite location but is $850 for a 1 bedroom apartment. The location however is so great, it would only be one bus for me to school of 20 mins and Tim's ride would be only 35 mins or he can then car pool with Jeff.
How did I figure this out? Well, it took figuring and guessing and calculating and really good budgeting. No home tv, internet, or phone- however we seem like we will have a monthly budget with a surplus, which I think I may be able to persuade Tim that this could be wisely saved and also spent- at least on internet! I am so extremly pleased with this discovery that I even was working on determining the situation for next year, summer and the start of the school year in 2010. I originally thought we would not be able to save any money for school but if we stick to our budget at least within $100 monthly we should be able to save enough money (including tax refunds) to pay for Tim's year of school. This is a huge relief to me. I feel a great weight lifted off my shoulders. I was so nervous for looking for apartments that I was looking for the cheapest which often meant crapiest apartments and now that I've seen it all written down I know where we stand and where we will stand. All we have to do is find the place and get approved for the apartment. Hopefully we can get approved at this time as we're both currently working full time- they don't need to know we'll both be going to school do they??
How do so many students do it- loans, school, tuition payments, other bills, spring break party -oh and we could go on a vacation if we were to forgo having tim's 2010 tuition paid for- okay maybe we'll wait one more year. But seriously, how do all these 18 year olds handle all this stress I know a lot of them don't just run to daddy, I'm sure some do. But really- those that do it themselves, yes they come out of school with loads of debt, hopefully they have a good job, at least I will. Stress. No wonder they drink a lot!!!
Well it's 1:30am I am almost tired and I do need to go for a run tomorrow, call apartments-hopefully my top choice will have space still....it said it did before. If not, I have 8 other options, I'm sure one of them will have something, if not, I found another 4 that are sublets, which could also work. Okay- I'm excited about apartment hunting again- I can have a monthly rent of up to $850 yeah. I'll never sleep!!!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Decisions are difficult!
I've done a lot of thinking. In fact, I think I'm almost always thinking. This thinking however lately, has been keeping me up at night. Okay, working nights 7 shifts in two weeks does keep your body on a late night routine, but still keeping me up....those pesky thoughts.
These thoughts that I think- well on life and change and decisions of the future and the present. Right now Tim and I are trying to find a new place to live. Nothing wrong with where we are now, but we feel it is time to move on from my Mom's place, that she no longer needs us for the purpose that we had moved in to begin with. So, then the delima is where to live. Location is always key, and I sometimes can get a little nervous in certain areas. We've looked around, called around and it's a okay time to be looking escepially if we're not in a rush. But there isn't a ton out there, and you have to jump on something as soon as you see it.
So, I'm up all night thinking and thinking and wondering where we're going to live and when we'll move and all the logistics of it....how long the bus ride would be, for me, for tim, can he car pool with jeff to the u of m. All this stuff...runs all through my head.
And the decision- well, I've got none. All I know, I currently live with my husband at my mom's house. I am going to nursing school in the fall and I work nights and it's tiring. Oh, and I'm running a 10km race on the 25th. That's it.
Hopefully I don't stress myself out about this too much.
These thoughts that I think- well on life and change and decisions of the future and the present. Right now Tim and I are trying to find a new place to live. Nothing wrong with where we are now, but we feel it is time to move on from my Mom's place, that she no longer needs us for the purpose that we had moved in to begin with. So, then the delima is where to live. Location is always key, and I sometimes can get a little nervous in certain areas. We've looked around, called around and it's a okay time to be looking escepially if we're not in a rush. But there isn't a ton out there, and you have to jump on something as soon as you see it.
So, I'm up all night thinking and thinking and wondering where we're going to live and when we'll move and all the logistics of it....how long the bus ride would be, for me, for tim, can he car pool with jeff to the u of m. All this stuff...runs all through my head.
And the decision- well, I've got none. All I know, I currently live with my husband at my mom's house. I am going to nursing school in the fall and I work nights and it's tiring. Oh, and I'm running a 10km race on the 25th. That's it.
Hopefully I don't stress myself out about this too much.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
3 years.
Wednesday this past week was my three year anniversary with my husband. Three years, it's gone by quickly. I remember when I was younger, in junior high, or high school and I would think about my plan for life and how I thought stuff would play out. I would get married for maybe a year or two then start a family. Well, I'm past that part and no family for me currently and I'm enjoying just being married. Life is so busy and complicated sometimes with just the two of us. I can't imagine the difficulties that a child would add at this time of our life. Yet, at times I can't help but feel guilty for not, creating? not, doing as God designed me to do. I have goals you see. Life, career, and others that I wish to do. I am uncertain on my desire for a family. I used to but since some changes and turns I don't know if I can bare trying again.
My mom was talking to me the other day about how we in american and some european countries are having an average of around 1.3 or 1.7 children per couple. Which, well...that means we are making less and less people. Gradually the worlds white population is shrinking. She also mentioned how there are other cultures that are still having large families of 6-8 children. I don't know what it really means. The face of our world is definetly changing. I think about however the baby boomers. You hear a lot of talk in the news about them retiring and being what, 2 years, 3 years away from a huge increase of retirees. What does that do to the canadian pension fund? Are there enough younger working people to keep that pension fund going. One thought, is that those boomers...not so many of the women worked as we do now. So, perhaps that will help. Also my other thought, being a employee of a hospital, is how will all this aging generation affect my job and the jobs of others, we definetly won't loose our jobs, but we'll be over worked that is for sure. And the waites for doctors, tests, emergiencies etc are just going to get worse. So the question is, should I be having lots of babies to do my part, yes it's an odd question and I know that my 2 or 3 little children wouldn't change a worlds population but perhaps if we all thought this way. However it seems that in general we are too preoccupied with the need for money. For lavish expensive houses that are too big for us to clean ourselves because we work all day long so we hire a house keeper. then there is also the fact that to keep this lifestyle we have to continue to work when we have children and then we need to hire a babysitter or send our children to daycare. I personally think the idea of sending my child to a daycare full time is not an option. If I were to have children I want to be the one to raise them. But...this is another part of my conflict with my own goals. Hmm.... very selfish I know.
My mom was talking to me the other day about how we in american and some european countries are having an average of around 1.3 or 1.7 children per couple. Which, well...that means we are making less and less people. Gradually the worlds white population is shrinking. She also mentioned how there are other cultures that are still having large families of 6-8 children. I don't know what it really means. The face of our world is definetly changing. I think about however the baby boomers. You hear a lot of talk in the news about them retiring and being what, 2 years, 3 years away from a huge increase of retirees. What does that do to the canadian pension fund? Are there enough younger working people to keep that pension fund going. One thought, is that those boomers...not so many of the women worked as we do now. So, perhaps that will help. Also my other thought, being a employee of a hospital, is how will all this aging generation affect my job and the jobs of others, we definetly won't loose our jobs, but we'll be over worked that is for sure. And the waites for doctors, tests, emergiencies etc are just going to get worse. So the question is, should I be having lots of babies to do my part, yes it's an odd question and I know that my 2 or 3 little children wouldn't change a worlds population but perhaps if we all thought this way. However it seems that in general we are too preoccupied with the need for money. For lavish expensive houses that are too big for us to clean ourselves because we work all day long so we hire a house keeper. then there is also the fact that to keep this lifestyle we have to continue to work when we have children and then we need to hire a babysitter or send our children to daycare. I personally think the idea of sending my child to a daycare full time is not an option. If I were to have children I want to be the one to raise them. But...this is another part of my conflict with my own goals. Hmm.... very selfish I know.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
A new start.
The world of blogging is by no means new to me. Only in the sense of trying to do so regularly. I enjoy the concept of a blog. Somewhere to sit, think and write. It seems, relaxing and inspirational all at the same time. Why have I never done so before ? I don't know. Lazy. That's the only answer I can come to.
How does one start a blog. The question that keeps coming to my mind. Maybe it's like running, how you just keep putting one foot in front of the other, but this is just by typing one key after another and hope that a good thought comes your way.
My thougths right now....well don't be fooled by the title of this blog, my thoughts aren't always very deep. They exsist by maybe not so deep.
I've been reading a lot lately. A series by Diana Gabaldon, the Outlander books. I like them. they are a romance/action sort of novel that takes place well, mostly in 18th century scotland. The thing I wonder is more so about our world now. We are very, well, we don't know how to do a lot of things that are basic to survival. I guess those types of things aren't needed anymore because we can just go to the store and buy what we need. Clothing, bread, water....wood. Anything. But years ago people had to do all this stuff themselves....even make their cloth build their houses with hand tools and now we have all the luxuries of the world and if I were to be stranded somewhere alone, I think I'd starve because I have no idea how to hunt or fish without a pole, or even make a fire without matches. Our life is pretty easy. I guess one would say we have different struggels I won't deny that. Physically though, life is easier.
How does one start a blog. The question that keeps coming to my mind. Maybe it's like running, how you just keep putting one foot in front of the other, but this is just by typing one key after another and hope that a good thought comes your way.
My thougths right now....well don't be fooled by the title of this blog, my thoughts aren't always very deep. They exsist by maybe not so deep.
I've been reading a lot lately. A series by Diana Gabaldon, the Outlander books. I like them. they are a romance/action sort of novel that takes place well, mostly in 18th century scotland. The thing I wonder is more so about our world now. We are very, well, we don't know how to do a lot of things that are basic to survival. I guess those types of things aren't needed anymore because we can just go to the store and buy what we need. Clothing, bread, water....wood. Anything. But years ago people had to do all this stuff themselves....even make their cloth build their houses with hand tools and now we have all the luxuries of the world and if I were to be stranded somewhere alone, I think I'd starve because I have no idea how to hunt or fish without a pole, or even make a fire without matches. Our life is pretty easy. I guess one would say we have different struggels I won't deny that. Physically though, life is easier.
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